Woweeee! I can hardly believe that my sweet, little baby girl twins have turned 1!!. Oh what a year it has been. Joyful, loving, fun, exhausting beyond all recognition, relentless and quite frankly, the most challenging year of my life, and my husband's too. I truly had no clue that it would be such an intense roller coaster ride! I assumed it would be challenging, but holy moly, I'm pooped! And in a lot of ways I feel like the ride has only just begun...
When the twins were born, my hubby and I were thrilled, and yet, totally overwhelmed by the thought of having three kiddos under the age two. We were over the moon happy that our family was growing and that all of our girls are healthy, but we were unsure of how our family dynamic would be. We went from having one child, whom we completely doted on, to two more within an instant. We loved them to pieces, of course, but it was definitely a whole new life we were embarking on. When we spoke to the pediatrician about being overwhelmed, a week after the girls were born, she said the most wonderful thing, "It's like the story of The Grinch, your heart expands and there is so much more love! Your heart gets fuller and so does life." And she was right! This is exactly how the past year has been! Each day there is more love, more happiness and things get easier...well kind of, it's constantly changing. There are new challenges, of course, and my patience is constantly tested, but the love and laughter is abundant (along with the shrieking) and we absolutely LOVE having 3 little girls to share our life with! We have adjusted and it is more magnificent and extraordinary then we ever could've imagined.
What I didn't know before my twins were born...
I didn't know just how abundant life could be. I didn't know they would be able to sleep through each others sounds in the night. That they would constantly play side by side and truly be best friends from the start. I didn't know that their older sister would be so incredibly loving to them and that she would include them in things that she does. That she would kiss them out of the blue and that she would be so quick to apologize when she made them cry. I didn't know that it was possible to be so exhausted and feel such a wide range of emotions in a two minute period. I didn't know that I was such a strong woman and that after having twins I would feel like I can accomplish most anything. Or that my hubby and I would grow even closer, after so many challenging moments. I didn't know that people would be so incredibly supportive and ready to help in a days notice. I didn't know that it was possible to give two babies a bath at the same time, feed two at a time and carry two at a time. I didn't know that my house would be filled with so many sounds and songs! And that when I went to bed at night I would be more exhausted than humanly possible, but happier than ever. Soon the girls will be walking. So far they are taking 5-7 steps without holding on to anything. I'm excited for them to walk and be able to have a little more independence, and yet, I'm completely terrified to have three toddlers. I have a strong feeling that there are going to be a lot of battles between all three of my girls when they can all start fending for themselves and pining over the same stuff. But I'm also banking on them having tons of fun playing together and getting a little more independence for myself. Right now, I am most grateful that our toddler is fully potty trained, the twins have been sleeping through the night for months and that we are almost done with bottles. These little things make life so much easier and more enjoyable!!
Looking ahead, I am nervous to have two two year olds, at the same time...Ugh! The thought makes me want to cry, but at least that's still another year away! For now, I will enjoy each moment and be as present as I possibly can. I will count my blessings, remember to breathe in the challenging moments (cause God knows there's a lot of them) and enjoy every moment I have with my little angels and super rad hubby!
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